The Confusion

My life comes to a new stage
Well, it is challenging and yet..
I am losing myself,
Who am i?

I met her
In a very unexpected way
Without hesitating,
I admitted
I feel good on her
What is this feeling talks about?
Only good thoughts?
Or i does really exist in love?
I am totally no idea.
I feel depressed,
When something was there.
What am i thinking about?
Time, will be the best solution.
To prove everything.
I shall wait, but what should i do at the same time?
Confusing.

On the other hand,
I been invited to join a band.
It is a new pathway for me indeed.
However, it is challenging.
Once again, i lost my identity.
A beatboxer,
used to be performs solo naturally as what i am doing.
Now, a changes should be done on me.
I have to change my style.
No more on doing club beats and song cover,
I have to make myself empty.
To adapt everything over again.
And yet,adapt all it on a different way.
I have to adapt my skill to a brand new style.
To mash up with others.
I am afraid,
That i cant make it thru.
Is it my faith?
I am scared,
That i will disappointed everyone.
Will it happen?
I lost myself.
I lost my beatbox.
I only found myself in solo,
I LOVE doing songs cover,club beats, sound effects with what i got.
What should i do?
To make a change or i should give up?
Confusing.

Both situation,
Are the same in some aspects.
Well,
I am afraid,
To take a chance.
I keep turning around on the same spot,
Without a move.
I knew everything,i knew it.
But i afraid.
I confuse with everything that will encounter in front of my way.

-The Confusion-
Mike
Cheers

empty

well...it is the first post here after i decided to revive my blog...
its been around half a year i never get in here..i admitted, it was caused by lazy..but of course, caused of all the things that make my life packed and messed me up~

along these days, i was feel like i am "empty"..
as what i mentioned, my life was packed..but how could i still say that i am so "empty"?
i keep struggling
keep asking
keep finding out the answer...
Finally,someone told me what i feel like actually,my "sister",
she told me that:
"You're prolly feeling like every step you're taking, every move you make feels lost with no direction.As depressing it may be, life's a climbing and we just gotta keep on moving,keep climbing and just keep having faith in ourselves. Stay strong and just keep pushing on.

To think about it really, it's not normal for any of us to feel that way. But yet we can't help ourselves by feeling so. Many times we ask ourselves why are we living this life, what is our purpose & direction. The only way to solve it is by finding ourselves again. It's a slow process but we can speed things up by keeping the faith alive. So don't give up. Life's just like a never ending journey."

yup. sometimes we might found no direction exist in our life. its actually a process and life is still going on. Its depends on how you face it and how you treat your life as. Whether to leave it behind or you face it and tryna to do something out of it. Its our faith but yet changes are always allow for us to make it. Make a move, no matter what you did, at least you try to make your life meaningful. Sometimes, chances are passing by and you missed it. Its all on your hand. Its doesnt matter when you found no direction in your life..we shall pass thru it. Do whatever to make your current life experience meaningful and memorable. One question to be ask in your future:"why i dont try to make that decision on that time?"..life passing on, we have to make your own style and life..

Empty, actually is allow you to fill in something.

Empty= Packed

cheers~

mike chong