The Confusion

My life comes to a new stage
Well, it is challenging and yet..
I am losing myself,
Who am i?

I met her
In a very unexpected way
Without hesitating,
I admitted
I feel good on her
What is this feeling talks about?
Only good thoughts?
Or i does really exist in love?
I am totally no idea.
I feel depressed,
When something was there.
What am i thinking about?
Time, will be the best solution.
To prove everything.
I shall wait, but what should i do at the same time?
Confusing.

On the other hand,
I been invited to join a band.
It is a new pathway for me indeed.
However, it is challenging.
Once again, i lost my identity.
A beatboxer,
used to be performs solo naturally as what i am doing.
Now, a changes should be done on me.
I have to change my style.
No more on doing club beats and song cover,
I have to make myself empty.
To adapt everything over again.
And yet,adapt all it on a different way.
I have to adapt my skill to a brand new style.
To mash up with others.
I am afraid,
That i cant make it thru.
Is it my faith?
I am scared,
That i will disappointed everyone.
Will it happen?
I lost myself.
I lost my beatbox.
I only found myself in solo,
I LOVE doing songs cover,club beats, sound effects with what i got.
What should i do?
To make a change or i should give up?
Confusing.

Both situation,
Are the same in some aspects.
Well,
I am afraid,
To take a chance.
I keep turning around on the same spot,
Without a move.
I knew everything,i knew it.
But i afraid.
I confuse with everything that will encounter in front of my way.

-The Confusion-
Mike
Cheers

empty

well...it is the first post here after i decided to revive my blog...
its been around half a year i never get in here..i admitted, it was caused by lazy..but of course, caused of all the things that make my life packed and messed me up~

along these days, i was feel like i am "empty"..
as what i mentioned, my life was packed..but how could i still say that i am so "empty"?
i keep struggling
keep asking
keep finding out the answer...
Finally,someone told me what i feel like actually,my "sister",
she told me that:
"You're prolly feeling like every step you're taking, every move you make feels lost with no direction.As depressing it may be, life's a climbing and we just gotta keep on moving,keep climbing and just keep having faith in ourselves. Stay strong and just keep pushing on.

To think about it really, it's not normal for any of us to feel that way. But yet we can't help ourselves by feeling so. Many times we ask ourselves why are we living this life, what is our purpose & direction. The only way to solve it is by finding ourselves again. It's a slow process but we can speed things up by keeping the faith alive. So don't give up. Life's just like a never ending journey."

yup. sometimes we might found no direction exist in our life. its actually a process and life is still going on. Its depends on how you face it and how you treat your life as. Whether to leave it behind or you face it and tryna to do something out of it. Its our faith but yet changes are always allow for us to make it. Make a move, no matter what you did, at least you try to make your life meaningful. Sometimes, chances are passing by and you missed it. Its all on your hand. Its doesnt matter when you found no direction in your life..we shall pass thru it. Do whatever to make your current life experience meaningful and memorable. One question to be ask in your future:"why i dont try to make that decision on that time?"..life passing on, we have to make your own style and life..

Empty, actually is allow you to fill in something.

Empty= Packed

cheers~

mike chong

伤害=配合+信任

一段对话
让我沉思了
沉思后，有好多话想分享。。。

配合和相信

只会会为你带来伤害

配合，为的是让你身边的人能够快乐，方便

但，换来的是别人的批评与断定，你，变随便了。。

相信，让你向身边的人诉出你的内心世界

但，换来的是别人的厌恶，你，被当傻子了。。。

这是所谓的过度配合与信任吗？

只能怪自己傻吧？

信任，有人向你诉说他的问题，

但那人只会让你觉得幼稚，不成熟。。。

那人向你说他想分享的，却让你觉得烦，废话。。。

或许，那人只为了娱乐你们呢？

或许，那人真的需要你的支持呢？

又或许，那人也觉得有点过火。。。

但，不是因为配合和相信才造成的吗？

或许那人傻吧。。。

请无时无刻回想你拥有的一切

知足吧。。。别人给的，请珍惜。。。

站在那人的角度，想想“为什么那人会给我这一切？ ”

换句话说，不是每个人都能分享他所拥有的，

当别人与你分享他的一切，请珍惜。

或许那人并不是愿意的，但为了配合，

选择了默不出声。。。请知足。。。

或许，在进行某些事时，

有人，选择配合而不出声，然而，就因为配合，被当作默认了。。。

请为他人想想吧！

别人分享他有的，是想令大家有个双赢的局面。。。

站在那人的角度想想

或许，那人也有他该忙的事？

就因为配合，那人错过了他的事？

又或许，那人只是不想破坏那感情与当下的气氛，

你，可曾有想过？

请不要一味的为人断定一个形象。。。

那人为你做的，是应该的吗？

不要因为习惯了，而渐渐伤害他人。。。

或许，那人一直在忍呢？

很多时候，那人可以选择大骂，甚至翻脸。。。

然而，为了配合与信任，他，忍下来了。。。

又有谁知道？

我们不能轻易猜透他人，

请不要断定他人。。。

换个角度，或许双方都能相处的更好

过份了，是否要退回原点?

她说：
“太傻了，当初就不该这样。就因为当初习惯了，所以现在搞成这种地步。。。辛苦的是谁？当不愉快时，选择离开的是他们。。。因为习惯了，一旦不习惯的事发生，就会开始逃避。。。 ”

又一个她说：
“ 从一开始，太多配合了。。。现在，已被定义了。。。默不出声，就会让别人不在乎。。。”

只想说，
不是埋怨，而是受不了。。。
不是要改变什么。。。只希望回到原点。。。
不想要破坏，只想要让大家沉淀。。。
想想。。。如何有个更完美的局面。。。

你.伤害.那个人

有一个人你一上线就会去看她在不在
不在就一阵失落 在 又不敢打扰

有一个人她的状态签名只要一换
你立刻胡思乱想 揣测不安

有一个人你在线只是在等她
而她的头像却不会在你的msn里抖动

有一个人 你一直期待手机里的新讯息会是她
但她的名字 总不会显示在手机收件箱里

有一个人 你总是忍不住去看她的空间
即使她什么新鲜事都没有

有一个人你会看她的最近来访和留言
然后又胡思乱想 揣测不安

有一个人你一直在等她
她却渐渐逃避了你

有一个人你真的好恨她
可是仔细一想你恨她什么
恨她放弃你么?

那不如恨自己~

有一个人你以为她是你的永远
但是她心里想 你只是伤害她的坏人

有一个人你真的可以对她无条件付出
她却害怕 对她来说你只是那根扎在她心中的刺~

有一个人你那么那么舍不得
她却渐渐离你而去

有一个人 教会你怎么去爱了
但是她却逃避你了

有一个人 你总说要放下她
却总是忍不住又拿回来回味

有一个人 你真的好想她快乐
但是你用错方式

有一个人 离开她的时候你笑了
但是一转身 早已泪流满面

有一个人 你好想大声告诉她
我真的好后悔爱上你了
因为 你发现 你真的 是真的爱她
但是她害怕你了 这就是事实

大哭一场
允许自己再大哭一场
以后 再也不会期待
不会看她在不在线了
不会看她的空间了
不会期待她的信息和电话了
不会期待她会关心你

有那么一个人 真的让你受伤了

再见了
我那么那么爱你 我一点也不遗憾
永不永久 都不要紧

重要的是
记得曾经有那么一个人 爱过你


现在我把爱情还给你 那你把我的回忆留在心中 好不好?

“爱情是很容易考验的。如果对方不以同样的爱情来回报你，那就是暗地里在轻蔑你。”

你，伤害了她
她，离你而去
你，只能笑着说对不起
她，会回来吗？